Settling a new life at a new place is always promising and full of hopes. A new blank page, new everything, new me. Or so it seems?
But it is so exciting and gives the feeling of freedom! Especially if it’s another side of the world with a completely different culture, climate and mindset. Now can forget everything from “previous”, “other” life(s), and completely immerse into the new world. Right here, right now! This can be really mind-blowing, intense, although quite challenging from time to time.
Open mind, curiosity, experiments, new friends, new flavours… But one day even the most extravagant and unusual things turn into routine and habits. Time matters; humans can get used to everything, or almost everything.
“I” and “me”, not disturbed anymore with daily masquerade, also come back to life with all their old luggage of features and questions, for better or worse. Nope, no escape from self; at least this trick doesn’t last long.
“I want to go home…” phase might bring to a discovery that the home, which was left, is not the same anymore. The same people, the same walls… same same but different, as they say in Asia. Time didn’t stop there, and meanwhile a lot of changes took place inside “self” as well. The past has passed. It’s time to move on.
“Before I used to travel a lot, but at some point I realized that wherever I travel, I actually move in only one space – myself.” – Victor Pelevin
Yet, traveling can be very addictive. Something is always calling to go ahead, experience something new and leave notorious “comfort zone” to discover new horizons.
During several months in India, I had a strong feeling that I had to go to Nepal because something very important was waiting for me there, some meaningful revelation. So, I went to Nepal. And yes, there it was – my answer from the Himalayas. Ta-da! The message was very simple and clear: “There’s no special place for answers. It has nothing to do with places.”
As Naguib Mahfouz, an Egyptian writer, said, “Home is not where you were born; home is where all your attempts to escape cease.” And I cannot say better.
P.S.: Where is your home?